Rememorer
Oh balls X-(
Saturday, January 17, 2009 • 4:56 PM • 0 comments

At ngayon ko lang naisip na parang sinayang ko lahat ng effort, time and money noong summer dahil di ko napasa ang ever dearest na UP! Yeap, I cant find my name so I failed :(. Ofcourse, I cant do something about it. Deep in my heart, I am really really sad. Hindi ko kasi natupad yung expectation ng lahat ng tao na nagsasabi na "matalino daw" ako. Sino ba kasi nagpasimuno nun? Mamatay ka na :|


Hindi pang UP ang utak ko and for me its okay eventhough I'm quite disappointed. I know I did all my best when I'm taking when test eventhough Im so hungry. I answer it according to what I know and learn but people around me are not contented. Why is that they are always comparing me to others? I cant help but cry cause Im really really hurt. Of all the people, sila pa ang parang nang-aasar sa akin. Why is that Im all fucked up? Fuckin shit! Fuckin Shit! Fuckin Shit! Tangina talaga. I rarely use this word but Im so fucked up! What can I do? My parents were mocking me. Its so hard to take all these stuffs. Dapat nung una pa lang hindi na ko nagtest sa lecheng UP na yan. How I wish people knew that Im dumb.


In my part, failing UP is okay but for everyone's part, ewan ko na lang. Ang saya saya niyong kausap. Ang sarap niyong barilin. :)) I thought I could get any encouragement that its okay. But not. At eto pa, harap harapan ba namang isampal sa mukha ko na buti pa yung kaaway ko nakapasa. Ang putcha talaga. Nakakagago na ah! Alam niyo ba ang eepal ninyong lahat. Sige, icheck niyo kung ano yung napasahan niya.


I cant afford to fail my future. You will see, kahit saan ko mag-aral, magiging successful ako. I will double my effort. I will give all that I have, eventhough it demands my whole. I dont fuckin care to all of you. Bring me down, I'll shoot you! =)) This is for my sake, not yours. Lahat naman ng sinabi niyo sinunod ko kahit ayaw niyo pero ito lang pala yung mapapala ko. I need to be rich. I need to be.I need to.I need.I.


Fucking Life! I'm so messed up! Now, I realized that no one loves me except for myself and God. So shoo people! You're so gago. X-(


Gladys/22 years old/Philippines

Im beyond your peripheral vision and aiming for art school.Im a provinciana girl at heart. I do think too much and contradicts myself most of the time.The internet doesn't speak for itself. There's more than meets the eye.